No Nostalgic feeling

It was the 4th of July yesterday. Being one of the most celebrated American holidays, I expected my self to feel at least a little bit of pride or joy in being part of this country. The truth is my identity to this country is either lost or fragmented. I don't get any nostalgic feeling of our forefather's fighting for their freedom. It was a monumental event, however I lack any emotional connection. If I were to say this less than 20,30,40,50, 60 years ago, I would have been ridiculed or perhaps tried for treason. How do we define an American besides legally on paper. In a country so diverse and spread out, a definition will be hard to find. My American identity and pride was washed away in the melting pot.